M.I.A.

I cannot believe it has been so long since I have even made a small update. No wait, yes I can.
This pregnancy has been an insane emotional roller coaster. My stress levels have been so high. I have been dealing with some pretty intense depression/anxiety/sadness/just generally being overwhelmed. I felt guilty to blog and weigh you readers down with my emotional state. After a massive breakdown on my husband two days ago I have decided maybe it would be better for me to start writing again. It has always been therapeutic for me and honestly if you don't want to read it, you don't have to. That is what the unfollow button is for right :P

I have been pretty busy this summer. We had a long vacation by the beach in middle June which was so amazing. I am wanting to be by the water so bad since Oklahoma is in the middle of the biggest heat wave since like 1980 or something. Not ideal pregnant weather at all! I don't even go outside unless it's from the house to the car, car to the store, ect. Miserable. We are on our second baby shower for my family this weekend and mine is next weekend. It's so crazy that we are right on the edge of having three little babies running around my family! We are all getting so excited!

We are also in the process of buying a house. Who decides to buy a house when they are almost 29 weeks pregnant?! I am crossing my fingers that it moves quickly and I won't be giving birth with a house full of boxes! Wish us luck!

My pregnancy has been pretty insane. Some of you know that I have dysautonomia, POTs, orthostatic intolerance, whatever you want to call it. Basically carrying this baby along with all of this extra blood, organs being squished, I am on the verge of passing out daily along with quite a few other yuck symptoms. Some women get really lucky and their symptoms actually get better, however I have not been so lucky. I am drinking about 2-3 liters of water/fluids daily along with 7-8,000mg of salt. Yes. 7-8,000mg. Wearing those lovely old lady compression hose is a wonderful fashion statement too! BLAH. Honestly nothing seems to really help and my midwife said once I have little lady my symptoms should go back to my, well, normal symptoms. I just keep hoping that I don't pass out at my baby shower in front of everyone or worse passing out while pushing! We have a plan and are hoping to keep everything under control and keep me well hydrated during delivery and make sure my blood pressure doesn't bomb out. I have faith that my body is going to cooperate just fine!

Here I am at this past monday 8/15, at 28 weeks. Hard to believe I have just a little over 11 weeks to go! This pregnancy is really flying by.

I will try to do a photo dump soon and catch you all up on my summer!