Today I am 41 weeks pregnant. I could be 40 still, but who's really to know. I am literally going insane. Madness has crept into my brain. I KNOW Miss Ever will come when she is ready. I am starting to think, however, that she likes it in my tummy. Why would she want to come out? To be cold? To cry? To poop...all of the time? I mean I guess I get her wait. Honestly a fear, that I believe is only natural seeing all I have is time to think, has come over me. A fear that I will need a c-section to convince her to come out. A fear that she is as stubborn as her sister and I will need to bribe her with nasty ass pitocin and an epidural to kick her out of her comfort zone. If I wouldn't have been in pain, ok not just pain, but PAAAAAAAIN for the last 3 weeks and not wanting to be around anyone because everyone is annoying the shit out of me, maybe I wouldn't mind this extra time. Honestly I feel like I am on the verge of collapsing at any minute. I am not even joking, one single bit. I keep thinking I don't even know if it's going to be possible to try and deliver without pain management because I have been hurting so bad for so long. Oh and screw all those damn natural ways to induce labor. LIES. All of them. Baby comes on it's own or by force. Stupid things such as bouncing on a medicine ball, sex, acupuncture, walking, lunges, walking sideways up and down stairs, evening primrose oil, red raspberry leaf tea, spicy food, and god help me I cannot keep up with everything I have tried.
So that's that. Now maybe that I have had a rant she will decide to get the fuck out of my body (love you, Ever...you freaking body theif)
1 comment:
I feel your pain! I have two girls, but I learned with my first one how long pregnancies really last. I hate it when people say you're pregnant for "nine months". I always correct them right away, "TEN months! It's ten months!" They say no, it's nine. I point out, "It's forty weeks. Four weeks in a month. You do the math..."
It's just that, as the mother, you are EXTRA aware of those four weeks people aren't tacking on. And it's even worse when you're overdue! Hang in there!
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