Happy Heart Day

Trust in dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity- Kahlil Gibran

2.14.2006

two more for the counting, soar and die, it happens less than four hours apart.

crash and burn. you're my crash, my crumble, my loss of control.

i'm the one that burns.

with desire.

with anger.

with my loss of control.

never enough, my last thought as i lay my head on healthy, sleeping kittens.

never enough as i look at my hands and their endless abilities.

i've lost to many eyelashes,

just as many wishes.

i could've sworn that we would have had a happy moon.

to much time,

never the right thing to do.

life. music. art. death.

i run mazes throughout my life.

i'm the agent, you're the trick.

you just think your smart "i know how you're going to react" attitude is the truth.

games are fun.

i picked shoots and ladders.

bad boy. good girl.

upside down world.

tomorrow is only yesterday, repeat just got left on.

relax.

i will be gone.

someday i will be the dust small girls make sand castles out of, while they dream of being the princess.

waiting for her prince to rescue and kiss her.

waiting and waiting and waiting.

soon and most often, not fast enough.

journal entry 5 years ago today.

happy valentines day nick.

you are my heart forever.

waiting and waiting and waiting was well worth it.