As She Walks

I am searching for big sister stuff for Scout. I am starting to think she is going to need a ton of encouragement to welcome this new little bean into the world.
Scout is over the top drama. She is the definition of 'only child'. She is the center of our universe, and rightly so I think. She has never been excited about babies, she will say "Awwwwwww!", then try to poke them in the eye or some other shenanigan. I am a little concerned about this. I know we have a ways to go, but two of my best friends are pregnant and we have been talking about babies for a long while. Nothing has changed with her. She did pick out a gift for the new baby, a musical giraffe and a rattle book. We thought it would be a great idea to get her warmed up. We brought it home and immediatly she said "I hate our new baby" and put the giraffe in time out! Oh boy.
This makes me worry. I have been crying myslef to sleep at night at the thought of abandoning my girl. I know I am not, but in a sense I feel like I am. She has had every ounce of my attention since I found out I was pregnant with her. She is a momma's girl to the max. I hate this feeling of trying to make my heart big enough for two littles. I know as my belly grows and I feel this new life move around that feeling will change. I just hope Scout never feels like I pushed her out of the way. I am thinking I need to take a look at the definition of BALANCE again! Hahaha!!

Needless to say maybe we both need some help to handle this new journey!