As She Walks

I don't know what to title this post. I cannot believe I am pregnant...again. That's what consumes my thoughts and will guarantee me a thought, but without words to describe it.

Here is the deal. I have been planning one of my my best friends baby shower since September (I like a really good head start on things!). I have done so much already and now here we are, 2 days away, and this is home stretch. This is where it comes down to all of the last minute details, the fun part. Guess who has zero energy to do this? Yep. You guessed right.

I say that to say this...

I think I will have more excitement for impending baby growing in my uterus once the baby shower has been completed to perfection. This sounds so bad. I know everything happens for a reason. I just feel like this happining should have happend sooner so I would be out of this dreaded first trimester or later so I would have boundless energy to accomplish this task! Nope. Not the case. So here I am, telling the universe to give me energy, give me hostess with the mostess attitude, give me my creativity back so this shower can rock everyones ass off! I cannot wait to show off all of this work! It's going to be so beautiful!!!!

In the meantime, everyone is convinced I am having twins. I think that is such a mean thing to say. Ok it's not mean. It just gives me chills, and I feel anger run through my veins :) I do not want twins. I am pretty sure I would fall off of this planet. I think that gravity would no longer work in my favor and I would just float away. I am so crossing my fingers that when I go in for my appointment on March 28th that I see only ONE wee babe on that screen, or just one heartbeat. However that works, cannot remember what they do at the first appointment other than tread areas that do no want to be tread(ed?). Ok, enough of that. So basically NO ONE wish me the "luck" of twins.
I don't need another reason to cry.
Hahahahaha.....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!