I am on a path that has been pretty destructive as of late. Unhealthy. Rage. Self loathing. Bawling my eyes out. Other unmentionable behavior.
It's unacceptable. I know this. Sometimes, I believe you have to do the exact opposite of what you would normally do in times of crisis. Lick your wounds your own way, not the way you normally would or how others tell you to. A way that only helps you. Even if it makes you look like a crazy lunatic.
This year has been full of shutthefuckupedness. It has been nothing that I would wish upon anyone. There have been some fantastic moments, yes. If I could hold those moments in the palms of my hands and breathe in the beauty as they happened, I would be a better woman. Though that is not the case. I do yoga, meditate and just started reiki attunments with a great friend of mine. What more can I do? What more can I do for this Universe? I ask myself this everyday. Maybe I should shut my fucking mouth and have some true SILENCE so I can hear the answer.
What do you do when you feel like everything you grab onto turns into sand? What is your strength? Leave me some comments. Let's talk. I need a therapy session.
